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Impoverished church
December 29, 2008, 11:23 am
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Staggered by loneliness, and in need of some kind of grounding, I hauled my carcass out of bed Sunday morning and walked down the road to the nearest church, which just so happens to be Catholic, which just so happens to coincide with my religious preference.

Now, I live on the south side of Hanford with immigrants who speak little or no English. This particular mass was in Spanish.

This would irritate many people I know, but I was perfectly happy.

I sat in the pew and tried to imagine what it would be like to be poor and Hispanic.

I looked around me. There was a peace, a calm, that is characteristic of Catholic churches (a side note: My brother, a genius for ferreting out hokum, can no longer tolerate big Protestant churches with jumbotron screens, multiple sound engineers and super-hip worship bands)

But I fancied there was something else too: The poor seem to be happier than the rich.

I saw a film recently in which somebody asked the Dalai Lama to explain this paradox, particularly in reference to the millions upon millions of abject poor in India who by some miracle seem to be almost cheerful.

His answer was simple: In their striving after riches, many make themselves miserable even as their possessions increase.

The poor, on the other hand, only have to worry about the basic necessities of life.

I sensed in this Spanish mass of immigrants – me the only Caucasian in the building other than the priest – a blessed immunity to the hardscrabbling desperate Yankee climate of getting ahead, getting more, rising to the top of the heap.

That is part of my cultural heritage, something I struggle with all the time. The pressure to be perfect, to succeed, to make bucks, to have a spotless house, to impress my middle class friends, on and on, ad naseum.

But these folks: Who do they need to impress? They’re mostly poor. They back each other up.

Contrast that with the lone Yankee consumer who desperately tries to salve his lack of connection by rooting endlessly through piles of stuff (That would be me, on occassion.)

This culture of acquisitiveness eventually infects Hispanics as they become assimilated to American culture.

I remember growing up in McFarland, a poor San Joaquin Valley farming town, and being friends with farm worker parents whose two daughters went to college.

When the daughters returned home after life at UCLA, you could see the disdain on their faces, hear it in their voices, as spoke to their uneducated parents.

Lamentable.

In this movie, the Dalai Lama went on to suggest that people caught in the trap of acquisitiveness are “mentally poor.”

And the best part was, he said it with a laugh.

I’m not Hispanic, I’m not poor and I find myself living in the status, wealth, power, beauty, and pleasure-obsessed culture of America.

But experiences like Sunday’s mass remind me that there is another, better way.


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Seth – Why the crazed look of concern on your new banner?? I cannot imagine the hell of commercialistic laissez-faire consumerism that must have driven you to such a state. Poor guy.

It almost sounds like, from your comments here, that Obama is doing a favor to the rich by increasing their taxes. Why heck, it’s almost like he’s some kind of spiritual leader, really.

Money is bad, and Americans need to be cured.

Comment by Aro

I think that the projector has replaced the hymnal and as the saying goes, what we’re left with is a ‘Seven – Eleven song service’ (singing seven choruses eleven times each). Some of the songs don’t even have a reference to God at all.
The loss of some of the most precious hymns to this generation is robbing congregations of a depth, breadth and richness that is becoming more necessary in these times when faith is being challenged in every avenue of life.
On the other hand, I feel that the church should take advantage of every type of multimedia presentation of the Gospel including contemporary Christian music that appeals especially to the youth but that’s all ‘frosting on the cake’ and does not mean it has spiritual depth.

Comment by O. G.

Seth –

I must confess that I often feel “mentally poor.” That is, I seldom feel equal to my circumstances. Then again, my own path back to Christian faith began with a recognition of mental poverty, or as I would put it, intellectual humility.

FYI, our family just decided to leave our “…big Protestant church with jumbotron screens, multiple sound engineers and super-hip worship bands” and go back to good old Westminster Presbyterian Church, where my wife and I were married, where the church is half empty, the choir sings slightly off key, and the pastor somehow manages to give a sermon without the benefit of PowerPoint.

For my part, I do not see a strong correlation between poverty and virtue in our culture. Most of us would probably like to have the opportunity to test whether our virtue would be strengthened or weakened by wealth and worldly success. But perhaps we should make a distinction between voluntary poverty and involuntary poverty. With respect to the latter, it would seem that vice is as evident as virtue. With respect to the former, some persons, moved by the spirit and strenghened by grace, embrace poverty for symbolic or practical benefits; but in our secular culture, such persons are generally met with ridicule.

Seth, have you ever considered becoming a missionary?

One last thing. As one of your middle class friends, I just want to say that the advantages of American middle class status should not be scorned, but neither should such advantages be idolized or idealized.

MQTA

Comment by MQTA

Seth,

For once your visage matches the sentiments in your latest post. Yes, acquisitiveness can be a problem, but so can poverty! Have you lost your mind? Clearly, the obsession with material things creates a moral emptiness. Compare that though with the emptiness in a family as another newborn dies from cholera.

Some people, probably single people, may thrive in poverty, but I don’t know of anybody who writes next to “Career goal”, “abject poverty”. Similarly, I don’t know of hordes of immigrants breaking down the fences to get into Sudan.

I’m sorry but I sense certain psychological needs are met by the sentiments in your scribblings. Frequently, people adapt their views to their circumstances. The intellectuals of late 19th century Russia embraced radical socialism as they were increasingly frozen out of pathways to higher status. Just as some people are blinded by their material possessions, are you blinded of the impact of your circumstances on your views?

As that great social philosopher, Forest Gump, once said, “Life is like a box of chocolates”. Frequently, our choice is between 2 problems: poverty with a greater likelihood of famine and disease, and a level of wealth that could result in moral emptiness. Roll the dice. Which problem would choose? I, like most people, would avoid the poverty and risk the moral emptiness.

Seth, come on. Happiness is not the monopoly of people having no other option than to drink infected water.

R. Graf

Comment by R. Graf

Seth,

Have you been to Mexico? If poverty is the way of happiness, then why the mass immigration to the United States? I think your perceptions sometimes mask realities. But, I do agree that wealth does not in and of itself bring happiness. Every culture has its positives and negatives, but you seem to just focus on American negatives…but this doesn’t surprise me concerning your outlook.

P.S. People from California are not Yankee’s.

Comment by Anti-Bilbo

Happy New Year Seth!

I share some of you struggles in this area. I grew up in Hanford in the category I would call lower middle class. My dad worked at Pirelli and my mom didn’t work. We had 6 kids so you do the math. Mom’s parents farmed 80 acres in Earlimart and dad’s parents were basically drifters. We grew up in an old 2 story house near Woodrow Wilson in central Hanford. Not poor, but not middle class either.

Went to college, worked hard, built our business and now I live in a big house in north Hanford with a pool and two dogs. Not rich but I can buy a new carbon fibre bike as needed without taking out an equity loan.

Gaining some assets is a double edged sword. On the positive side you gain independance. But that is also a negative. You have less worries about paying bills but you have more worries about losing your stash. I pay insurance in case I die, get sick, get disabled, get sued – more so than some people take home every month. I have money to travel but no time to do it.

Does all this become a problem for my spiritual life? If Jesus walked up to me said “sell all this stuff and follow me” I ‘think’ I would would but I’m not 100% sure. Maybe not my Ketrel but most things. I’d like to think it doesn’t take my focus off the Lord but maybe it does. I’d like to think that having extra money to help my parents and my church makes it all right but maybe that is a cop out. It’s a struggle. Maybe that is the Holy Spirit saying “watch yourself, bud.”

If you want a back to basic, church in the raw experience, check out Calvary Chapel Hanford’s sunday night service in Lemoore. They are seeding a new church there. One classroom with a handful of people, metal chairs, a guy with a guitar leading music and no jumbotrons!

Comment by Kestrel Tim

I don’t think you REALLY are so caught up in impressing your middle class friends or else you wouldn’t live on the south side. I live in Southwest Hanford and believe me, I know that look of distain/pity that flashes briefly over people’s faces that don’t when they find out where I live. I don’t have any real need to “make it” to the north side; I was born and raised in south Hanford. I blend. :)

So how do we become happier with less in this culture of consumerism; where ownership of property, land and fancy material goods are the hallmarks of success? How can we avoid the barrage of images and messages that constantly drive this home? We were all told, indirectly by news stories, that is, that if we slacked off on spending this holiday season, we would be somehow responsible for the collapse of businesses, the economy and for people losing their jobs. As if irresponsible management by those in charge of the economy and of large corporations were merely a small part of the problem. Did it feel as if it were almost unpatriotic to not go out and shop?

I just want off the hamster wheel.

Comment by BJMallory

Hi Seth. I like the new look. I really enjoyed this post. My husband and I had the opportunity for 5 years to teach a marriage and family class at our church. There was a lesson on money and budgeting and one thing that I always brought up because it wasn’t always the same people… was that we seem to be happier when we have less money. I know to most people that sounds crazy because who doesn’t like money. We do fairly well. We have a roof over our head, food to eat, clean clothes to wear, warmth which is so important in our crazy cold Northern Nevada weather. But I have found that when we are doing a little better than that, that is when the “I wants” start. And we just don’t seem to be as happy. But when we don’t have that we more able to remember the more important things in our lives and are able to be more thankful for those things.

The other thing that I wanted to say was about how you said the mass was mostly in spanish and that didn’t bother you. We used to have a missionary in our ward that was from Tonga. One Sunday he got up to bear his testimony of the gospel and Jesus Christ. He stated talking in english but the more he talked he slipped back into his native tongue and while I didn’t understand what he was saying I have never felt the spirit stronger than I did at that moment. It was an experience that I will never forget. So I think everyone should take the opportunity if ever presented to them to hear about the gospel in another language than their own. I heard someone say a couple of months ago… ” You can be deceived by what you see, hear, and what you read but you can’t be deceived by what you feel. “

Comment by Not so mad in Nevada

Aro- Will my friend, some people swim through American culture like a fish in the sea. Others, like myself, gag, choke and sputter. What can I say? This is a blog for the disaffected.

Comment by snidever

O.G.: I think you’re on to something here. Whenever I go to the jumbotron megachurches, I stagger out greatly depressed. It’s automatic.
Check out MQTA’s comment. Looks like he checked out too.
Long live those who can’t stomach cool, hip, pop culture spirituality!

Comment by snidever

MQTA: Yes, I’ve thought about being a missionary. My attempts to live with less and less are headed in that direction.
I am weary of being my own little corporate entity out for profit.
So you are forsaking the jumbotrons … May I ask why?
As for poverty, my stance was intensely personal. I feel relief from the pressure of perfection by being among the poor, why are relieved of this pressure and thus can be happy under conditions that Americans, trained as they are to expect certain things out of life, would consider horrific.
There is something comforting about seeing poor people in church. Most of the churches I grew up in meshed middle-class upward mobility with Christianity in such a way that you didn’t know where Christianity began and the “American dream” left off.

Comment by snidever

Yes, I have lost my mind, and I can’t remember when it happened or where I left it.
I feel comforted in the presence of the poor. There is nothing left to prove. The awful pressure of perfection – achieving that paradigm of earthly paradise that lives on in America – is relieved when you are among the poor.
They CAN be happy under circumstances the average U.S. middle classer cannot.
That is an amazing feat. They (the poor) have a power that yuppified America will never be able to grasp.
I never was able to achieve the middle class way of life. Chalk it up to my own “mental poverty.”

Comment by snidever

Come on, anti-Bilbo, the Yankees are America’s team, aren’t they?
I have been to Mexico. Actually, south Hanford IS Mexico.
Funny how there are all these stereotypes about the poor.
Many of my friends who have been to India have commented on a certain sweetness and cheerfulness among those who live in conditions any American would call a living hell – shantytowns, slums, etc.
How could people in such conditions possibly be cheerful?
It’s a fair question.

Comment by snidever

Kestrel Tim: It would be tough to give up that sweet bike, wouldn’t it? I’m with you on that one, friend. I grow weary of trying to keep up on my increasingly hard to pedal mountain bike.
You do a good job, I think, of balancing out the benefits and drawbacks of wealth.
I think you are on the right track for sure.
Thanks for the tip on the service. People are needy these days, and it’s good to see a church full of obviously needy people – not just wealthy middle classers.

Comment by snidever

BJ,
Good to hear from you!
You wrote: “So how do we become happier with less in this culture of consumerism; where ownership of property, land and fancy material goods are the hallmarks of success?”
In that question, you put in a nutshell what I tried to say in 300 words.
Bravo, my fellow wordsmith!

Comment by snidever

Not so mad: Good thoughts! Assuming you have the basic necessities of life, what more do you need? That’s the deception of American culture.
We Christians are automatically in conflict with our consumerist culture, because it wants our total allegiance.
Once you become aware of idols, you are forced to make a choice to either give in to the idol or resist it.
Many are never aware of the choice.
Christians are automatically situated to be aloof from any and every culture on earth.
About the Spanish: I understand it pretty well, so I could follow the service. I got a lot out of it. It was extremely simple, and was blissfully free of references to engineering one’s own spiritual happiness.
What a blessing to go to church with the poor!

Comment by snidever

Seth –

The short answer to your question is “family considerations.” As for the theological questions, i.e. Anabaptist vs. Reformed, I honestly don’t have the time or the energy to give it much thought.

MQTA

Comment by MQTA

Seth,

You have deified poverty! Just as you have decried bourgeois spirituality, you have gone to the extreme of placing poverty on a pedestal. I am reminded of the Jacobins and their attempt to replace Christianity with the “republic of virtue”. There were these scenes of a woman on a throne dolled up as “virtue” and being paraded about on the shoulders of the equivalent of altar boys. For you, the woman would be “poverty”.

For someone who blasts materialistic conceptions of the “good”, you seem to have adopted one to plant the stake of spiritual authenticity. This may come as a shock but “poverty” is a material condition. This conviction of yours that is based on a material conception, as you so readily admit, has more to do with your own comfort level. Those with less might have a sense of awkwardness amongst those with more, and vice versa. Now we have gotten of the crux of the problem: How do we get people to rise above this damaging self-awareness? The mega-churches with the jumbotrons may not be the real issue. The presence or absence of these things has very little to do with it. It’s the hearts of the participants! How accepting, caring, open, and humble are they? That is the key.

Your rants remind me of the bohemian attacks on bourgeois respectability. Self-described artistes flaunted their superiority over the mere striving for upward mobility. Similarly, the old, dinosaur rich resented these new upstarts within their midst. They were said not be cultured enough. Have you been poisoned by the ages old combination of class envy and prejudice? Knowing you, I doubt it … but I am beginning to wonder.

R. Graf

Comment by R. Graf

Seth –

I do not have Roger’s gift for polemics, but the point he makes about class deserves attention, specifically as it influences our respective world views, a more pervasive influence than most of us recognize or are willing to admit. From a Christian point of view, it is almost certainly a mistake to idealize or idolize any particular class, assuming a strong correlation between that class and some desirable spiritual condition; this sounds like economic determinism, a philosophy more often associated with atheism than Christianity.

MQTA

Comment by MQTA

MQTA – Point well taken. Rereading the blog, I realized that I could be interpreted as sounding like a Marxist.
It was just that I felt at home with the simplicity of the mass among these poor people.
The message was simple. The people were simple.
It reminds me of what Jesus told Martha about only one thing being necessary, and “Mary has chosen it.”
Have grown up with many Hispanic friends, and having worked in the field with farmworkers, I have a connection that many middle class whites don’t share.
I’ve always enjoyed being around people at the bottom. Part of it, no doubt, comes from my own brother, who has spent much of his life at the bottom.

Comment by snidever

Seth, You said, “How could people in such conditions possibly be cheerful?” Its easy…their whole selfworth isn’t associated with money…they have family which is more precious then gold. My wife and I have sacrificed the possibility for material wealth so our children can have a loving stable home life and moral direction…we value that more then cars, large homes, fancy dinners, etc. And we are not alone in America by the way!

Comment by Anti-Bilbo

Anti-Bilbo,
Now you are speaking my language, brother! Now you are challenging some of the cherished idols of our time! Be careful where this rebelliousness leads you!
Actually, I jest. I have no doubt that you are doing what you say you are doing, and that your children are blessed to be in your household.
May your familial revolt against our cultural idols lead you all to the Truth!

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